I haven’t published anything on my blog since December 2018. The current circumstances have, however, pushed me to retreat into my innocuous little writing cave once again.
Dealing with 2020
So far 2020 has been wild, hasn’t it? Bushfires in Australia, flash floods in Jakarta, a volcanic eruption in the Philippines, and then a full-blown pandemic!
It’s almost like somebody pulled out Jumanji and decided ‘what the heck, let’s have a crack at it’.
Honestly, out of all the movies you’d wish you could be living in, this ain’t it. But it’s what we’ve got right now and it feels surreal at this point.
When COVID-19 became a major ‘oh heck’ moment and lockdown was implemented, I wasn’t too fazed at the time. I felt comfortable working from home and kept myself occupied with painting, reading, and chatting with friends.
My outlook has shifted considerably since then. So much so that I am aware that it’s having a noticeable impact on my attitude.
I even cut my own hair during the lockdown. It didn’t go so well, but I don’t care. I’ve also realized that my writing style and tone now reflect my erraticism.
Truth be told, we’re all experiencing this pandemic in unique ways. Mostly due to varying levels of privilege we have or don’t have.
I feel like COVID-19 has just made prevalent inequalities in our society even more pronounced and has highlighted flaws in our collective systems and the global economy at large.
It’s bizarre how everything is right now. We’re living through uncertain times. (Yes, I know that phrase has been tossed around a lot lately, especially in advertisements, but what can you do?)
Right now, I’m worried about my friends and everyone else I care about. I hope we get through this pandemic with our physical and mental health somewhat intact. And maybe, some years down the line, we’ll look back on all of this and just be like ‘damn, so that happened’.
I’ve also been seeing this bothersome narrative online about how ‘this is the best time to be productive and learn new things! Follow your dreams’. I mean that’s all fine and dandy, but it’s also okay to cut yourself some slack and just binge-watch some of your favorite shows every now and then without feeling guilty about it.
Your version of productivity doesn’t have to fit the version you’re seeing online.
Side note: I’m so glad I deleted my Instagram and Facebook accounts last year. Being away from these platforms has shielded me from a lot of those ‘inspirational’ posts and picture-perfect moments that, frankly, just made me feel bad about myself and my life in general.
No one’s life is as good as it appears on social media, and that’s a fact.
I went on a completely different tangent there, sorry. Back to the pandemic productivity fetish.
This productivity obsession needs to end
It’s natural to have days when you aren’t feelin’ it, you know? I’ve had those, too, and I would just like to get through this rough patch without self-proclaimed self-help gurus making me feel guilty about how I’m spending my time.
I’ve been productive on some days but other times I’ve just been trying to do the bare minimum to get through the mind-numbing madness that is 2020. And you know what? I’m going to pat myself on the back for that.
I watched this video yesterday and it helped get a load off my shoulders. This is exactly what a lot of us need to hear.
I’ve been rambling for too long. I just hope everyone out there is doing okay.
Stay indoors as much as you can and practice physical distancing. Wash your hands frequently and use tech to stay in touch with the people you care about.
I know it’s hard, but we’ve got to do our best right now.
I’m just going to wrap this up and share some music I’ve got on repeat to calm myself down during this nightmare.
Thank you for reading and Godspeed!
- Survivor – Eye Of The Tiger
- Simple Minds – Don’t You Forget About Me
- Led Zeppelin – Kashmir
- Seal – Crazy
- Des’ree – You Gotta Be
- Aloe Blacc – The Man
- Jason Mraz – Look For The Good
- José González – Stay Alive
- Capital Cities – Safe And Sound
- Tom Misch – It Runs Through Me